Throughout this season of lent so far, I find myself constantly reflecting on trust and humility.
We always fear the unknown when we take a step into a new environment. Since all of us are/were students, we’d spend the first few days before school starts worrying about choosing the right friends to befriend, getting smart/hardworking group mates, joining a CCA you can really contribute to using your God-given gifts and talents etc.
However, our pride gets the better of us sometimes when we feel like we need to ‘market’ ourselves to these new people so that we can have an awesome social life, be in the best project group that’ll help boost our grades and being in a CCA where we get recognition for our achievements, or where we can shine because of our talents.
School’s been a huge struggle for me being alone here, yet i’ve been prideful to ask for help despite being so lost, especially since I got shot down by a lecturer who seemed to look down on me a lot for not knowing my work and not being able to grasp certain concepts, while other classmates were so on the ball with things. Uni culture has been shaped over the years to become a competitive environment. Being in it, everyone is inclined to create the best impression of themselves in order to ‘remain competitive’ and to do well (myself included).
I never bothered to pray for exams/assignments/studies throughout poly and Os because my pride told me that I could cope with it just fine without prayer since everything was going so smoothly. Yet now in uni, I find myself drowning, calling out to God to save me and feeling so upset with myself for taking advantage of Him in the past for I know I was/am nothing without him.
Needless to say, after realising how i’ve lacked humility in that way, prayer (especially before I start on work) has gotten me to a much better place. God has sent great people who’ve been helping me with my work, I am more focused, and i’m constantly reminded that with prayer, the word ‘impossible’ is really non-existent, if it is God’s Will.
To sum this up, at the end of the day, it doesn’t matter whether you’re the smartest valedictorian, the MVP of your team or the most talented musician because in the eyes of God, these don’t matter (unless we’re doing these for His greater glory), unlike how it matters to our society on this Earth. He made us as we are now, perfect in His eyes and He’s equipped us with all we need to be his humble servants, and we should accept ourselves for who God made us to be, and to trust that He always has a plan for us especially when things don’t go the way we want it to.
Thus, this lent, in times where we’re so focused on accomplishing things and claiming credit for our successes, may we be reminded to pray for humility, to lay down our pride, and offer up our successes to the Lord, for it is He who gives us the strength to do the things we do in His name.
1 Peter 5:6 – Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that He may lift you up in due time and cast all your anxiety on him
– Lauren (24 March 2017)