Hey guys! Here’s my reflection for today. So the two scripture verses I’ll be doing this reflection is from Romans 12:12, “Rejoice in hope, be patient in suffering, persevere in prayer.”, and in 2 Thessalonians 3:13, it says “Brothers and sisters, do not be weary in doing what is right.” Over the past week, this word PERSEVERANCE has popped up a few times in prayer and in Mass and Stations of the Cross. So I knew that God was trying to tell me something.
There were many times during this Lenten journey that I felt that I’ve done enough and it’s okay to skip one mass since I was REALLY tired and wanted to sleep in (especially on Saturdays). I think for the second week of Lent I went for Stations of the Cross after Mass at St Anne’s Church, and a few things really hit me. Firstly, it was at the 10th station where Jesus is nailed to the Cross and the reflection prayer that we said was “Is my soul worth this much?” and I was just so mind-blown and my heart was so tilted/stirred thinking about that question. Secondly, it was at the station where Jesus fell the 3rd time. Jesus fell 3 times on the way to Calvary, and yet He still got up and staggered on, even though He hardly had any strength left. This perseverance and this will that is ours and cannot be taken away from us was another mind-blowing concept for me. So every time I felt like I’ve done enough and I sort of have the “leeway” to just skip one mass, I thought of these two things. 1) JESUS LITERALLY SUFFERED LIKE MAD AND DIED FOR ME. 2) JESUS GOT UP AND STAGGERED ON. Like #perseverance?? I persevered and went on too.
As I was struggling with another of my Lenten commitments during one of the weeks of Lent, I shared my struggles with one of my sisters from this group I’m journeying with, and she told me something that struck me. “God knows your pain, and remember that Jesus was tempted by the devil on the very last day, the 40th day of His time in the desert. Just when we think we’ve been doing so well, the devil knows how to make us feel all good and happy with the state and lose our guard in keeping faith. So stand firm and strong, and yes, endure it for the Lord for He is greater!” and I was like WOAH YA!! He was tempted on that very LAST DAY. And so this also encouraged me to keep pressing on and that even when I fall, I should not despair because it’s in our nature to fall, and the best part is, I will remember that that’s EXACTLY why I need Jesus.
I believe that God has been reminding me of the grace of perseverance that I’ve been given and to keep seeking Him in all of the things that I do. He’s also reminding me and you that our Lenten commitments aren’t the goals that we’re achieving but it’s through these little sacrifices, that we depend on God more.
Toni (2 April 2017)